how do i get through the day?

If I wake up at 3 I think, "Oh thank God.... I can sleep."

If it's 6:30 on the clock I think, "Oh shit... how do I get up and how do I pretend again?"

my animals are staying away from me

I don't blame them... they sense I'm depressed.

I'm writing this on my boss's computer I borrowed... the sign in password is "2Bhappy!"

Ironic.

How ironic.

I smell the ocean through the window.... it's ten miles away. I feel it calling. I could slip under... and peace.

Fuck that.

I want to live.

Searching for Normal

I thought of this blog idea a couple of months BEFORE this pandemic we're in. If the topic interested me then, it sure as heck has become something I really want to explore.

What is normal?

I'm going to start asking people and seeing what is common in what people perceive as normal, what society as a whole considers normal and what I consider normal. Also, what has become "normal" in a very abnormal time of self quarantining and social distancing.